Just another HIV Journal.

Some words of experience. Some things no one told me. Sincerely, someone who hoped to have been reached out to.

Get Tested. Mssg.

  • Him: get tested
  • Me: I have. a month ago!
  • lol
  • Him: well me and - tested pos apr11 and he told me yall messed around in march when u came home
  • not being funny.. just keepin it real
  • Me: .... im neg thou
  • Him: fyi.. he and i are not together so dont think anything of it
  • Me: bro.....
  • are you like being for real?
  • Him: swear to God.. i would not put that on myself if it wasnt true
  • Me: ..
  • Im so sorry to hear that
  • where are you?
  • Him: thats why i was trying to talk to u b4.... he had told me everyone he delt wit at the time when we first found out....
  • Im in - why
  • Me: I thought you were out of town or something.
  • you wanna talk about it?
  • are you ok?
  • Him: depsite - being a hoe.. i thought u was a pretty cool dude so thats why i was tryin to tell u
  • well im livin tryna make it man.
  • Me: Thanks for looking out. I get tested regularly though.
  • so,
  • omg
  • Him: keep doin it and be safe please.. dont be like me!!!
  • Me: sweety i dont know what to say.
  • Him: just say that u will be careful who u deal with because hiv does not have a face man... u never know
  • Me: so is - ok?
  • Him: im sure u never expected that.. but - has been with alot of people even just during me... and he dont care at all about condoms... you are 1 of a crowd of people he was fucking wit during me
  • yeah.. he still doin him.. he really dont care now... i had kept catching wit people every other day.. it dont bother him
  • Me: I believe it. I wouldnt second guess it. but promiscuity is prevelant in todays society. beyond just the gay community but in america period. i really feel bad now.... is he still going around fucking everybody?!
  • Him: yup... but its not my business anymore.... he dont even know im in -... he thought i went to - and stayed and thats the way im keepin it so i can cont to get over him
  • Me: OMG.
  • Him: we was fighting all the time when i found out... we fought before i went to - just a week ago
  • Me: IS TTHAT WHAT WAS GOING ON WITH THE PICTURES AND STUFF?!
  • THE FIGHTS YALL WERE IN.. WAS BECUS OF ALL THIS.
  • THIS IS CRAZY.
  • Him: call me
  • Me: K
Rihanna

—Love The Way You Lie (Part II) (Piano Version)

 

Rihanna

Love The Way You Lie (Part II) (Piano Version)

LOUD

Today… I start my HIV journal.
And my journey begins.

Today… I start my HIV journal.

And my journey begins.